Philippe & Queen

#Letitbe - The Beatles

I wandered aimlessly along streets after working hour. In winter, it was dark sooner than usual. All of a sudden watching movie occured to me, I went to cinema and bought a ticket. That day they had shown Fast and Furrious 7, an action movie. There were totally eleven audiences, five couples and me. I was a big fan of series of this movie. And now I wonder there is anyone to sob violently when watching this movie as me, almost a half of ending. That was the first time I discovered an ideal place to cry if haven't wanted somebody to know about it.

On walking street at weekend it just saw how the crowd was. The happy faces of brides and grooms were been taking wedding pictures, the clowns in gaudy clothes playing with childrens, the bands dancing at crossroads were surrounding by youngers, coffee shops along streets were full. I went through them and stopped in front of Youth Theater. They were showing a short play directly in small stage. I saw the whole cast truthfully. The audiences like me didn't sit on chair but on street or stand around. It was a comedy play and made me laugh. I stayed late until the last bus time came. Hanoi was small but too large for me at that time. From Opera House, seeing the yellow lights and I failed to stand my sadness anymore, tears started dropping again eventhough I was in bus, it couldn't still stop. My eyes obviously became wet and red. Moon was in sky brightly, I sat in the brench along path leading to my house and talked with a tree. It was a beautiful tree that I put her name was Queen. Her branches looked like a ballet dancer's arms. If walking under Queen in sunny days, I could see those small sun stars among fresh green leaves. I couldn't talk with her in my native language because of difficult express feeling and emotion so she and I talked in English, actually only me - talking, she always listened to me and consoled me by leaves swaying lightly in the wind. I deeply breathed in and out to calm myself before coming home.

Every evening, I often talked with Queen before I came back home, I talked with her all things from work, boss, colleagues, mom, siblings to some guys who were flirting me deceitfully and also my sorrow in my soul. She was a perfect listener, no judge, no comment, totally trustworthiness. Exactly what I needed at that time. That day, when the bus arrived at station I ran to her as fast as possible "Hi Queen, how are you today? Wow, I have a good news for you. Philippe will come to Hanoi tomorrow. Surpised! Yes, me too. I can't believe it but I receive his email today. I will meet him after tomorrow. Well I will introduce you to him if have chance. Goodbye Queen" - I smiled until starts in sky.

Winter in Hanoi doesn't have snowy but enough cold to feel warm care from an opposite person. Philippe has same charactor as Queen is a good listener, but one different thing that is he often shares his experience or stories of his life, just share, not advise. He never says "you have to do ..." or never uses 'negative words" to discribe me. Maybe he knows and understands me, maybe not. He always tries to orient me to positive things and encourage me to be confident and believe in myself. Philippe often goes in business in short time, everytime meeting him only takes a few hours so saying goodbye became regrets. As western manners of saying goodbye by hugging, we always do it. My last bus came, I ran to it but suddenly in a half of street I turned round, ran back to him and hugged him again "Philippe, thank you for sharing and listening to me today. It truly meant to me a lot" - I whispered and turned away. In a moment, all of silent things in the heart are poured into tears.

Sometimes if you can, let to become a listener and give more your hugs to your friends and family. You may not know how those things have strength to them whose heart and soul are breaking. Philippe's hug in that winter saved me and gave me faith to become me - a New me!

#For Philippe

#For Queen